Darren,
I just read about your loss. I am so sorry to hear that your dad is no longer with you. I and several others here have lost our fathers in the recent past, so please know that our hearts are truly with you and we really do feel your pain. When my dad passed away last year, I wandered back and forth among feelings of strength, numbness, and total devastation. Kevin Rooney told me that the depth of pain would ebb and flow over a much longer time than society typically acknowledges. Knowing that ahead of time helped tremendously. Knowing that someone else understood that helped even more. Months, even years down the road there will be moments that come out of nowhere filling you with emotion as you remember your dad and wish he were still with you. Please know that we'll be here for you then too. My thoughts are with you and Carmel, now and in the future.
Sincerely,
Roxi